Rica Woo's

      公交车投币数由一枚变成两枚是最近的改变。542还不是很简陋。 
      这一带都不是高层。17号楼的背后有一个专门辟出的吸烟区，背阴处的开式阳台。老远抬头看，总能看到吸烟的人，他们看起来似乎也互不相识，就站在那里看看天，一根烟吸完，掐掉烟头转身开门，进入的是另一种世界，那里没有天空，有低低的顶，有温度很高的空调风。楼外的色调都是深灰色，说不上是稳重或是压抑或是别的什么。走廊里却有柔和的白色灯光透过玻璃门。你说它单调，门口卡片一过，小红灯闪成绿，很像眼睛眨，程式化的变换。 
      与小美小姐圣诞节的计划似乎被打乱。看来好事情总是事与愿违，人越长越大，却越不自主。又不知来年出游是否能够成行。我们在一起的时间总嫌不够多，然而却找不到方法解决。回来要取的东西很多，我只匆忙挑拣几件，就已经大包小裹，你在那里看着闲书，我们总这样称呼它，等着我收拾完，也有三言两句的交谈，房间里很暗，台灯的光并不分明，3月有快过3年，头发短了又长。 
      又是一年年末，回顾这一年，过的有点快。平安夜要来了，圣诞节要过了，之后的新年也要到了。早前特意绕进百年城，看它摆出来3层楼高的圣诞树，银光闪闪的，店家不慌不忙的装饰着门脸，相信变成红色海洋应该是很快的事情。 
      这一年我没有许太多愿望。不是没有。总怕会落空。 爱情，一是青嫩小苗，一是桃花不断，得来全无侥幸。有时候想问明亮的月亮，你那明亮的一面背后是什么，不热烈，不阴郁，你只是微微笑着。前些天路过一扇橱窗，有副咖啡色手套，于是想到一双手，干净的气息，细微的动作。要知道，海角天涯是一个永远都到不了的地方。你的身边，才是我最想停留的日光城。
      昨天看了三枪，出来时候看买票的人排到门口，同Alex说着莫名其妙的结尾，体验了高丽园，和晓庆姐十几个人去沙龙玩三国杀，11点才散，打车回来时候街上已经没有人，清清冷冷的街反而有了安静乖巧的模样。顺道把她捎回家，下了车，我就裹了裹衣领眯着眼睛继续。没有人，没有人，没有人。路灯，路灯，路灯。一幢楼，一幢楼，又一幢。一条街，一条街，又一条。石门山隧道的确很长，我没能记住通过它的时间，我只是数了100个数等它过完。 
      车子飞奔的时候，我就想，回家的这条路，怎么会这么长。我在想，什么时候可以有属于自己的一定要回的那个家。希望不要太久太迟。快到目的地时候付了钱提前下车，跑着回去，紫红围巾甩在身后吓的一跳一跳，心跳得比打鼓快，咚咚咚，四周只有我的脚步声，低头看到的是路灯下我的影子。

如果是礼物，我只想要一件就好。 
我又开始记日记了，因为我想看一看，我到底把自由挥霍在哪里了。 
我发现，我也一样可以把日记写得很像日记， 
多年后，也许一翻开却发现天气一栏里面永远是雨天。那天我也淋过雨， 
而现在呢?今后呢?
不怕淋雨不怕等，依然等雨停。

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
When I would have to way
make so many mistakes
I could'nt comprehend
as I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth
I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my maze had been solved
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though it will have a differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
Its the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally
I remember the beggining you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
On another face
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the nets that I have made
Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my maze had been solved

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
Its the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally
Finally, Finally
Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though it will have a differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally
ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally